Black Valentine

What’s your favourite colour? It takes only a split second for me to come out with the answer "Black". It is as simple as that. I have also heard many saying the same when posted with the question. Well it is not the same with my parents. For them it is inauspicious and they prohibited the use of black. In fact when I was not well once my mom blamed the black dress I wore. I had to wait almost 17 yrs to get my first black trousers after lot of struggle.... :) After I started earning I got most of my dresses in black and I just love wearing it though it doesn't suit my skin texture. For me it is just a wonderful colour which has all the colours within itself... :)


The first time I wore it was for our college symposium and a guy scolded me for wearing it for the function. The one who scolded me was bloody intelligent and I was taken aback to hear it from him. Even a guy who is that modern considers black to be inauspicious. Still the day turned out to be a one for many to remember. If not for many at least for me. Thanks to the guy who spread a rumour about me and a girl.


Now coming to the valentine part. All my friends in the hostel decided to wear black for the Valentine’s Day in my 3rd year and it has been a practice since then with me to wear black on that day. It just started as fun for us but I had an instinct that there is a reason behind it. I was trying to figure out what that was only then I realised that none of my friends who wore black that day had a girl friend. After quite a lot of thinking which finally was unnecessary I came to a conclusion... :) It was just a way for us to let out the frustration of not having girl friends.... :) Well many wouldn't accept this and still argue saying that it was just for fun. But the fact is they are letting their frustration out. If a guy or girl wears black dress on Valentine’s Day then there be 3 reasons for that


1. She/he has not had any luck in finding love.
2. She/he has had a break-up and they don't believe in love anymore.
3. She/he does not believe in love.


(99 % will come under these 3 categories the other 1% are the true innocents)


The first 2 categories are common and the reasons are acceptable. I really pity the one in the 3rd category. Even I was one among them. They are the jackals coming out of the vineyard saying that the grapes are sour after having tried umpteen times to get them and failed in all the attempts.... :) This is the bitter fact. To me there is actually none in the 3rd category and all has to move to the first.


Anyways I am sure that at some point of time in life anyone and everyone will be out of these 3 categories... :) Just love the way you can. But make sure you tell your love as it would too late if you don't let them know now. I say this because we are too bad in expressing love though we love a lot.

Tough Times

Hi Everyone,

I has been almost 2 months since I posted or read anything in the blog world. [ Expensive Snap is an exception which is also not in a good shape ] It has been like living in hell though I get very good care and awesome food right in my bed from my family ... :) I have gone through the most tough times of my life so far in the past 2 months.Though the surgery caused me lots of pain, it is the mental stress caused by doing nothing which was really tough to cope up with for me . The brain is almost blank and I am not able to think or enjoy anything be it the movies or music or the food that I have enjoyed for the past 24 years.The whole world seems to be blank and me living all alone. Couple of blog attempts turned out to be awful that I restrained myself from publishing them.Many attempts to read books failed and I don't know why ? I remember the first lesson in my 10th English prose where a guy misinterprets Fahrenheit and degree when he has a fever and is afraid of his life like anything.The very thought of me having to handle myself in a softest way possible which is totally opposite to what I am within made my life even worse.I was in a very similar state of mind.Though my mind knew that I will be alright in the future , my heart refused to believe it and I was in a total jeopardy.I started showing it on my loved ones. Thanks to them for standing me in those times.Even when I type this post I am not completely out of the nut shell and I am still trying to get out of it and become my normal self at the possible earliest.Hopefully the coming blogs will be in good shape ... :) 

I wish none suffers from what I have gone through in the past 2 months and what I will go through the next one year.

Take care guys and girls.... :) 

Expensive Snap

This photo was taken on our way back from Tennesse to Richardson.It really needed few attempts and I kept jumping for about 5 to 6 times to have this picture. But little did I know that this photo is going to cost me a lakh rupees and almost a year of my life. I am least bothered about the money it is all about the amount of pain I had to undergo and the amount of trouble I had given my parents,girl friend and sisters for the operation is the one which is bothering me like anything. Due to the strain I had a disc protrusion and a cyst formation in the spine. So here comes the suggestions which I failed to follow 

• Eat less
  
• Do some kind of a exercises ( Yoga , aerobics, walking , jogging  , gyming , swimming , cycling ) Yoga is the one I would recommend.
  
• Avoid Non-Veg. I never thought I would say it this early in my life :( 
  
• Don't strain your back. ( This one is for all the software engineers sitting for a long time )
  
• Avoid stylish bikes like Apache, unicorn , pulsar.( Alter your seat positions to minimise the strain if u have these already )
  

Guys it is never too late . Start ASAP.

Living in Pain

It has been a week since I had this severe back pain.It looked like minor issue but now has almost become an untolerable one.Now I have also developed severe pain in my right leg that I am not able to walk sleep as I would like to:(.....

So whats big deal now ??? Go and meet a physiotherapist instead of writing this non-sense here.

I know thats the easiest thing to do had I been in India.The unfortunate side here is the part of the world where I am staying.I have been trying to get an appointment with the doctor from morning but in vain.I somehow managed to land in a voicemail box and if in case some one picks up they rejected the insurance that I was holding.

 

So what has made me stay in USA for a week with all this pain.I am just thinking about that and all I could conclude was,I was just staying there for money.The other factors for my stay there was negligible.I believed that I had over come this thought "Money is Life" which I had till the first year of my professional life. This incident proved me that I was not out of it completely.But as I write this I made up my mind that " Money is always important in life but not at the cost of ur life and ur loved ones". By the time I completed the blog I had already got the tickets for my return journey.

Hope to be alright soon.

Who Knows Me Better....!

I am the best in knowing myself and this holds good for each and everyone.But, it is always interesting to hear what others think of us or the perception they have in mind about us. I failed terribly in the first attempt as only couple of people made an attempt and only one wrote ... :( So here I am publishing the same again after almost 2 years.Hoping that I will get a quite few responses this time around. Let me see ... !

The only difference this time around is that, this is not an attempt to keep my blog alive and I have even removed the moderation for the comments. That way people can write whatever they feel or want to write .... :)

PS : Anonymous comments are also welcome... :)


Original Post ( January 1st 2007 )

Hey just fill what you know about me or in case you know nothing fill what u think or feel about me in the comments column....!

A different attempt to know about many perceptions people have about me..... :) and a desperate attempt to keep my Blog alive.....:)

Empty Slam Book

The first time I wanted to use a Slam Book was in my 12th standard. I just wanted a girl on whom I had a crush to fill that for me. I can laugh about the reason now. I had to pull all tricks in my bag to get that book which cost me around 100 bucks and that was huge money then. I would party for almost a week in Madurai with that money... :) When I partying, it is going for a movie and eating out in bhajji kadai or some parotta kadai when we return which would cost us just 30 bucks.This is partying in Madurai. Adho oru Azhagiya Nila Kaalam. Now coming back to the point, It was the last day of our exams and unfortunately she was in Bio-Maths group and her exams were over a day before. Somehow I got to know that she was coming to the school to meet her friends after our final exam. I had to persuade my friend who had a scooty to take me to the shop to get the book. I came back to school hoping to get the book filled by her. She was there standing with her friends having a last time chat. I voluntarily joined them and somehow asked them to fill the book hoping that she will also fill it up. There came the heavy blow to my heart. I could hear a voice call her. Even before I could realize what was happening there I saw her in a bike with a guy leaving the school. I was totally disappointed and all my efforts went in vain. I never had a chance to get the book filled by her. Never will I get a chance either as she is already married and settled in USA now.I have no clue how these people find guys from USA to marry.Nevertheless she is gone. Though the book had lots of pages filled in, to me it was just a Empty Slam Book..... :(

The only happy thing then was, the guy whom she in bike was her father.... :) he he he

Four Years later .....

Slam book is most popular during the last year of college. We generally use a diary as a Slam Book and this time I used a huge diary that I got from dad for that purpose. Many pass it around to anyone and everyone in college and force them to fill it up and years after college when they get to read them, most pages make little sense or no sense at all in some cases. Well this is a bitter truth that many don’t realize. Even I have filled few books though I never felt like writing them. Not that I don't respect them, somehow I never felt I was worth enough to write in a book that they treasure for life time. I always wanted a very few people with whom I have shared enough emotions to write in my book and I did succeed in that with few exceptions, which I was not able to avoid. The book now is a great treasure in my life with lots of emotions in it. A sad fact now is that few people don't have the same emotions they had while writing those pages. They are not to be blamed; after all they are busy with their lives. But still when I read them it brings a faint smile in my face. There are few which are very long and few short ones but I just love reading each and everyone again and again. There was also this incident in my life with the slam book which I will treasure for my life. Life was just beautiful..... :)

Life has changed a lot and so have I along with it, after all that’s the only thing constant in life

Girls are always Girls.....!

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