Kavithai ... Cult ... 96 The Movie

முரளியின் கண் ஜாடை அழகு, சுபாஷினியின் அதட்டல் அழகு

ராமச்சந்திரனின் மெல்லிய வெட்கம் அழகு, கூச்சம் அழகு, ஆழ்  மனதின் ஆர்ப்பாட்டம் அழகு, பதட்டம் அழகு , தவிப்பு மிக அழகு ...

ஜானகியின் கூந்தல் சாயம் அழகு, காதோடு ஒட்டிப்போன குமிழ் அழகு, காதோரத்தில் கூந்தல் சேர்க்கும் மயிர் குச்சி அழகு, புருவம் இடையில் குங்குமம் அழகு, மை மிகைப்படுத்திய கண் அழகு, மஞ்சள் போர்வையில் வாத்து நடை கூட அழகு, ராம் மீது கொண்ட உரிமை அழகு, துயரத்தில் அலங்கோலமான மயிர் அழகு, காலம் கடந்த தூயரத்தில் விடும் கண்ணீர் அழகு, ரயில் பயணத்தில் குழந்தை சிரிப்பு அழகு, ஆண் உடையிலும் அவ்வளவு அழகு, கழுத்தில் தவழும் தாலி சரடு அய்யய்யோ அவ்வளவு அழகு...

மொத்தத்துல திரிஷா வேற ரேஞ்சு.... இருவரும்  கார் கியரில் கை ஸபரிசிப்பது  கவிதை...

I was able to see only Janu in the entire frame, but Ram comes across with some mind-blowing performance… Cinematography and Chinmayi voice needs special mention along with the Music Director who had let the emotions do the talking on many occasions than the BGM...

157 நிமிடங்கள் திரையில்  கவிதை  வடித்த இயக்குனரை பாராட்ட வார்த்தைகளே இல்லை...

We could ask for more such movies but not sure even if he will be able to pull it off again …

Could not imagine a better end to the movie... The lead pair not hugging till end gives just the perfect high...More than a movie it was a sweet journey and I just wanted it to continue... It was like walking with the one you loved the most irrespective of the place… It put a smile in my face and it has not gone away yet… Couldn’t understand why it is that way either…The best I can say is, it gave the same feeling you get, when the one you love gives u a wink and smile from a distance …

என்னமோ செஞ்சிடுச்சு.... என்னனு தெரியலை ...

If I were Ram I would have dropped Janu at Singapore airport... At least till Trichy being a domestic flight …

Even before watching the movie I had a positive vibe about the movie for no reason and I couldn't take anything negative on the movie... Now that I have watched, I can only smirk at those...

I would rather look a fool to people who don't like or give a damn about this movie instead of proving them wrong ...

It Happens ... It Happened .. ! ! !

I was on bench for quite some time and had rejected couple of ludicrous project assignments rubbing few shoulders on the way. I was living quite dangerously for quite a few months, it all started turning around in last week of Jan 2019. In fact I had attended an client interview and cleared to work as a test manager for a new project in a new domain. We were on the proposal while assisting in tracking another automation project as well on the side. Things started taking a turn when I decided to have a one-on-one meeting with my L1 asking to move me into Quality team and in parallel the project getting delayed. And this was in midst of a company takeover. ! ! ! I had to convince my wife for a Bangalore move as the quality opening was available only in Bangalore and in fact started house hunting to enjoy a bachelor life after 5 years, hiding my fear about living alone again :) I was no more an asset and became a liability to my L1 and she had no reason to hold me. I was in the open turf ready to be shot at. I had meanwhile negotiated and agreed to take up a technical role completely out of my comfort zone with my previous Manager. I was to go and talk to my RM and confirm the change and move into the new role in couple of days.

It was at this moment I received a ping from the HR asking me to come a conference room. I could sense what was going on and informed my confidantes before I joined the so called meeting. As feared I was shown the door stating that they were not able to find me any projects. I was just perplexed and went mad in my head. I was angry, disappointed, frustrated, cheated, let down etc etc but in a corner felt happy also for some reason. My emotions were running high, and I just wanted to burst right there. It seemed like the end. I wanted to leave the room blaming them for ruining my life. But didn’t and in hindsight that was the right thing to do. I would have done the same , had i been in their place. They had been supportive of me for the past 8 years and the same guys even retained me a year back when I was forcing to find my way out of the company. The HR was arrogant to the core and she did get under my skin, but I liked the deal of being paid few months' of salary for my service and immediate termination.

I just had to leave not having a farewell from my team or friends. That was my only disappointment at that point of time. I always wanted this rosy farewell from my team when I left the organisation and a parting gift :)

I know it was not because I performed bad and I know I was better for sure. I know I was financially ok to handle the situation. I knew this was bound to happen and this is how corporates operate having seen through couple of recession earlier. But still the reality dawns on you no matter how well prepared you are. The next 2 days was really painful and I shut myself completely from outside world, just vented out my anger and frustration by avoiding even a morsel of food for almost 2 days straight. I pity my partner for she could do nothing to make me feel better. It took me almost 10 days for me to completely get out of what had happened out of my system. Thanks to the meditation school I am associated with. Ideally it should have been much quicker, but being the person I was, 10 days was not bad. People very close to me would consider it damn quick.

What was more heartening to hear was, when people said they thought I will be alright and will handle the situation with ease. Everyone that I called for help did their best to get me a job. Even acquaintances helped and I started getting calls from all over. Few of my friends encouraged me to go on a vacation for I wouldn’t get such time after I get a new job :) Few of my reportes even took the pain to call and express their disbelief. My confidantes in the company fought with the HR and they assured me that I will ride through this as quickly as possible.

I felt insecure without a job and tried my best to distract myself. For some reason in spite of all that was happening around I was happy and laughing. I gave quite a few interviews and turned down couple. I just didn’t want to rush into something that I was not comfortable and be a failure again. I was up brutally honest about being laid off and it was not taken negatively by any of the interviewers ! ! ! Most of the interviews went well and I was closing on a job in Bangalore. But deep within my heart I prayed and hoped for one in Chennai. And then out of nowhere I contacted an old contact and it all happened in a Jiffy. I was told to come for an interview the next day and strangely I told my wife that I will get the job. Never have I been this positive and after giving my first round I called her again to say that I am not going to step out of this campus without a job. I had another three rounds of drilling and end of the day I was told that I will be taken in and that too with a decent hike. I was happy and calm , not ecstatic as I was when I got my first job 13 years back :) 

This was a new me realizing that as long as you stay positive good things will come by you. After struggling for 30 odd days and everything changes in a single day.I made a conscious decision not to write on this till I could post positively. I stayed away from everyone just hoping not to spread negativity. Started morning walks to keep me fresh and reduce weight by an iota. I met my friends after a month or so after receiving the offer letter for a new job. I didn’t meet my team and met them only on 4th July 2019 exactly 2 months from when I was sent out, with the new ID card. I should thank everyone around especially my wife for being supportive. She was even ready to feed me for life, as long as I stay happy at home. It was a compelling offer , but still turned it down ;)

I came to realize that if something had to happen it will take its course. Just go with the flow and things will fall in place. I know it is easier said than done. But I am sure with experience everyone will get to learn this lesson at some point in their lives. I have consciously avoided taking names of those who helped in this tough times for I feel it is more personal and appropriate to do it in person.