2011

I have been in Chennai for almost a decade now and this is the first time I stayed back for the New Year. I know it sounds weird but that's the fact. I make sure that I always go to my native Madurai for the new year and I attend midnight mass in a church close to my house. This has been the routine right from 12th standard for some reason and I continued with that :)

So having decided to stay back I somehow wanted to go somewhere for the new year celebrations instead of sleeping at my home and after lots of confusion we ended up paying close to 2000 bucks for a night at the Radisson in the GST road. That was the cheapest and safest considering our residents. As we entered the hall there was nothing spectacular. We started of with the food and that was the best part of the night for me. They had a wide choice which included kerala style fish and few other continental dishes of which a desert made out of rum and brownie was yummy. Being a foodie the purpose for me was already served even before the celebrations started :)

As we started having our food there was this guy who started of the celebration with some simple games which were quite familiar to us and the only different thing here was that all old people played in front of the entire crowd. There were few intimidating games and it was a common sight to see husbands kissing and hugging their wives in front of the crowd which I believe is quite a culture in these places these days and I was not startled by any of these but few were. I could see them looking with an awe the way people behaved in front of the crowd. I was just wondering how my parents or for that matter even my sisters would feel had I brought them with me for this celebrations. For sure it would have ruined a nice day for me :)

Most among the crowd were people from the upper class or the upper middle class people with an apt outfit for the occasion and they looked so among the crowd. The dads and husbands found nothing odd with the length of the dress theirs kids or wives wore which would have irked common people for sure. They just got along with the celebrations and it gave an indication that this was yet another New Year party for them unlike us and another bunch of bachelors in the corner of that room.  Everyone was playing and enjoying each and every moment there and danced their way into new year 2011 with great joy. It was a memorable night for me too as that was the first New Year party I have ever been in my life.

But there was this section of crowd who were so stuck to their orthodox attitude and were trying their level best to look normal among this high class crowd. I assume that they have come just on the compulsion of their husbands and few even tried playing and dancing with sarees and it is obvious why it has a special mention here in the post. Few were even drinking in front their small kids and that's the only thing startled me on the night. They looked so lost in this world and were just trying their best to imitate what others were doing. I don't understand why would they want to do it in first place. They somehow think that it adds some brand value to them but it is worth nothing. It is always best to be what you are and what you feel.

I really feel sad for all those who are just trying to be an !@#$% when they are actually not one.

My First Attempt

Nirmal : Halloooo ... Whoo is this ? (in a frustrated tone)

Swetha : Hey this is Swetha …. Hmmm……

Nirmal: (Super Excited and completely out of sleep) Heyyyy ... Happy Birthday ... :)

Swetha:  ya thnx man ….

Nirmal: having a blast with your friends  ??? 

Swetha: ya just done with the cake cutting …..somehow felt a little weird not to find ur msg on phone by 12 ... Don't know why ! ! !

Nirmal: hmmm.... hey have a blast ... catch u sometime …. Take Care... See You ... (Hangs with a heavy Heart)

Swetha: hmm.... Ya Bye...

Dei machi it is already 6:30 ..Walking polaiya da nee ??? He wakes up just to realize that the conversation was just a dream. Hmmm … Good it happens at least in dreams .. J As he was getting out of the bed he heard his friend screaming from the other room ... " Machan you had a call around 12 da. I tried waking you up with no luck... It was from an unknown number so just left it unanswered.

Apadiya  ! ! ! He was still feeling sleepy and checked his phone to find a call missed and an unread message. Unable to figure out the identity of the number he just got into the message folder to find a new message again from the same unknown number …. And it read “Hey was waiting for ur msg which never came :) enna flata nethu night? “ with time displayed as 12:03 AM .

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5 years back…

It has been almost few weeks since Nirmal joined this college in Chennai and he was really excited about the fact that there were quite a number of figures for him to hit on though he was not capable of doing :) Well being from a remote place like Trichy there is no wonder that he is a little hyper to be in this college. He was enjoying each and every moment of his college life sitting behind the most beautiful girl in the entire college.


It was after a couple months did he take notice of this girl who was not that beautiful as many other girls in his college, she was a little fat but still he fell for her without any reason. Though it sounds clichéd that’s the way it was. He really had no reasons whatsoever. She was cute with those glittering ear drops and the complete black salwar suited her complexion to perfection. May be she was looking that way because he admired her a lot :) but his world was in standstill for now and it was that way for the next 4 years.


Fortunately she was in the same class as he was but that didn’t help him in getting to know her better which he always wanted to do. He at times got a few chances to talk to her and at other times he created a few chances to talk to her and he would cherish each and every moment he spent with her though not many for the rest his college life.

In one of the few interval break he got to talk with her ......


Nirmal : Hey Swetha …. Howz ur headache ????  are you okay now …..


Swetha: Ya ya I am okay now .... feeling a lot better .... Everybody calls me sweety why don’t you do the same....


Nirmal: Swetha sounds a lot better to me ... freeya vidu .... seri did u go to the doctor ???? 


Swetha: No no just took a paracetamol and that did the trick .... :) 


Nirmal: hmmm ... try avoiding self prescription it is not that good you know .... 


Swetha: atha vidu .... seri assignment panitiya ???


Nirmal: aiyo havent even thought about it ... what abt you ???? Let me know once u are done I will take a copy of it ... :) 


Swetha: Ada paavi ... seri tharen... aana konjam modify pannittu apram copy edu seriya ... illa adhuvum naanae unakku panni tharanuma ! ! ! ?


Nirmal: no no ... I will take care of that .... edhu kuda pannalana apram enna engineering sollu :) :) :) 


Swetha: Nasama po ... talk of the devil and there she is .... prabha saniyaen varudhu lets get in and sleep :) 


Nirmal : hmmmm .... ok ok .. lets go ...

This was one of their conversations and others were no different from this either during the 3 years of college life. They were a good acquaintance I should say and it stayed like that till the last day of the college. He never got the guts to ask her out nor had the luck to be her friend. He was always happy to see her from a distance and he enjoyed it being that way. If not for the little slam book none apart from his close friends would have ever known the feelings he had for her including she herself. He still wants to get to know her better like he always has done.

At present ....

Nirmal: Hey wish u a happy birthday…. Howz life??? Sorry I missed ur phone number… I lost my mobile last week….

Swetha: That’s ok… you generally wish me at 12 with an SMS right so was expecting the same this yr too….Thnx by the way …. I am good … howz you?

Nirmal: Not bad ….. Had a blast last night?

Swetha: Yeah it was great… My fiancé had come over to my home and we had a great time with all family members…… I am in a hurry now… catch u later ….

Nirmal: Oh great …. Have fun … see u …bye…

It is still the same even after 5 yrs of college life. Nirmal still relishes each and every little moment that he had spent with her though they are not many. His mind knows what he did and is doing is total crap. But then his heart still loves what he does and that is all it matters when it comes to ….. hmm….  ! ! ! 

Happy New Year 2011

It has been 5 years since I started blogging and somehow I have never blogged at the end of a year about what had the whole year in my life. This year has been an interesting one in my life though it is short of many instances worth mentioning. The best one is that I decided to take a new path in life when it came to professional life. I decided to give away the chance to travel abroad for a long term and instead decided to move away from the company I had worked for close to 5 years for some personal reasons. I got one of the best send off from my friends. It was really a memorable day that I had spent with all my friends in the company staying till 10’o clock on the last day. It was a moment to cherish. :)  

June 14^th marked the day of new beginning in our lives, we started off a school which has been my father’s long time dream. I couldn’t thank each and every person who had contributed to the cause of starting that school. The list goes long and not many are into the web world so I refrain from mentioning names here J we have only around 30+ students learning at present and I am sure we have a very long way to go before we can call that project to be a successful one. But for now I believe it is good start to the new path I had mentioned earlier in the blog. It is kind of nice to see the kids learning and feels good when you realize that you are in some way contributing to the growth of the society. It is completely a different satisfaction you get than what you get spending your hard earned money in one of the Top restaurants or Resorts or some multiplexes. The place is filled with clean and fresh air and I am just waiting for the day to go there and start leading a life at a pace few times slower than what I have right now. Well it has its own equal share of problems like generating fund for the project and trying to bring in students. I have been trying to sell the house which we have living for 25 years for this purpose without much luck. I hope I can do it ASAP in the New Year. :) 

I have been working (testing) on a flagship feature for my company and it has been a tough job for the past 9 months or so with all the dynamics around. The toughest part of all is handling the feature all by me with no one to get you out when you fall into trap. It has been a different working environment from my previous company not to mention that the domain is completely different from what I was working for the past 5 years. On the whole it has been a challenging environment to work and I have had a great experience doing it and have learnt quite a lot after joining the company. I have made very minimal friends here in the new company for some reason!!! I am still trying out to figure what that is ? It may be because, there aren’t many who is in the same boat as I am in any aspect of life :)  I hope I continue doing the best I can do here in the new company.

I entered a phase in my life where everyone is getting really busy with their lives including me and we friends hardly get time to meet each other. Still we have managed to go for few trips they were really a great time I have had this year. Most of my friends have either got engaged or have got married and it has become really difficult for them to find time for friends. One of my best friends had become a father this year and congrats to him on this achievement :)  Best of luck to all others who have entered wedlock or getting ready enter the same. The rest are in the process of finding a partner for them and I wish them good luck on finding a partner of their liking. I assume it is called wedlock for some reason. As far as I am concerned I am hoping to get into the same lock ASAP :) 

It is a New Decade in another few days and I wish you all have a prosperous life ahead. 

Wish you all a Happy New Year 2011........

Thalaivaa......

I guess we should restrict the usage of the word thalaivaa.....

kandakanda naayellam thalaivaa solranuga ! ! ! 

Hero Worship has been an integral part of this society for quite a long and at times it has even shaped up in a ridiculous way. It has scaled new heights in the past few months , thanks to the science fiction movie screened across the globe. The  movie was a very good attempt in Tamil Industry and the director has to be applauded for the attempt and the pains the entire team went through in making of the movie. I recently got a mail claiming that few tens of people had walked on their knees to the temple on top of a hill offering prayers for the success of the movie. Why would they even do this ????? Doubting the authenticity of the mail I tried searching few news articles only to surprised as it turned out to be true.... To be honest I was flabbergasted and felt pity on those brainless idiots.

It is completely a senseless act and I wonder if they will do the same for a friend of theirs even when they are in grave danger. I bet not many from those bunch will have an yes as an answer to this question. I still have no clue as to why someone would indulge themselves in such an act, just for an entertainer who is in no way related to them except for a little more than 2 hours every time they spend their money to watch him in silver screen. ! ! !  Many personify these entertainers to be leaders which they are not, instead of treating them as just entertainers who make them happy for just few hours.

At times this reaches some heights which many would regret in future. That would include pal abhishegam , archanai , aaraathi with sudam not for the person but for the poster. I feel really bad, for liters of milk go waste in the process. In a generation where these are questioned when performed for God himself by so many social activists what would these people get by wasting their time and money over someone. I am sure there are many better ways to show their love. There was another article by a fan pouring out his frustration on his so called leader for he was not able to see him on his birthday. He claimed to have travelled quite some distance just to convey his wishes but failed as he never got to meet the person. He went to the extent of questioning the attitude of the actor for not spending time with his fans on his Birthday. What he should understand is the actor is yet another  common man and he would want to spend time with his family on his Birthday.

Well even I do go for first day first show but that’s just for the entertainment and it does not mean that I adore him. All it means is that I just admire him and that’s the way we should be treating them. The only thing that comes as comfort is that the present generation is slowly but definitely moving away from Hero Worship. Gone are the days when people appreciated any crap if done by someone they love a lot. People appreciate good work these days without any biasing and that’s really a welcome sign. I hope this continues to grow and we can have an health films getting released instead of commercial entertainers. ... ! ! !

Who is Luckier ???

People marrying the one they love or People marrying the one who loves them a lot ? 

It looks quite a complicated question to answer on the outset but then when thought about it becomes much simpler than it actually is... :) There is this famous dialogue from a Tamil movie "It is better to marry a person who loves you than a person you love the most". I am not sure if that's the right way to go about choosing our partners. But then not everyone gets the person whom they love and as I had mentioned in my post we are bound to make compromises as always.Though both are lucky in few aspects, I strongly feel that the former is the luckiest ones in the world without any doubt. 


I am 26 now and I have seen my share of marriages, there are few scenarios where a person accepts all the mistakes and sometimes even crap the other do after marriage just for the fact that they love them a lot. So we generally feel that the person being loved is the luckiest in the world for they have found a perfect partner who accepts them for what they are and put up with all the crap they do. ... :) It is true to a great extent. But we fail to notice the happiness the other person gets just by the fact of being near with the person they love the most for rest of their lives. Their heart beats fast and they get excited each and every moment they spend with them and they are on top of the world for rest of their life. 


Imagine the moment you felt when you saw the person you fell in love for the first time,the moment you heard them speak something , the moment you shook hands with them even when you were friends, the moment you sat beside them on a travel or at a party, the moment they whisper a gossip in your ears when in a group, the moment you had them leaning on your shoulder,the moment they flash a smile on you,the moment you hugged them for the first time not to mention the moment you kissed them if that had happened by any chance....!!! It is these moments that make a person happy in a relationship. This might sound weird and unacceptable but then this is the truth and fact which many ignores completely after a certain age. The person who get to marry the one they love relish these moments for rest of their lives. The other though is loved and looked after with utmost care doesn't really get anywhere close to how these people feel. They might be happy but I feel they are not as lucky as the person who gets to marry the ones they loved the most.


I am not sure if many will agree to me but that's how I feel. I was really shorts of words for the first time while writing a post for some reason but, I hope I have conveyed my point. If not just chuck it, I did the best I could regarding this post. May be it is just not that easy to explain how we feel as it is to explain what we think :)

My First Blog Ever.....

It has been almost 5 years since I joined the blog world .  Even though I had no idea what blog spot was about when I created an account for myself in it. It took me nearly one months to write something decent enough to post and that was way back in  Sept-2006. I still remember spending 3 hours to write that and I cherish it till date. People generally change over years and so have I in many aspects of life but somehow feel that all that I wrote in my first post is still the same and nothing has changed drastically to change my thoughts with regard to that post except for the Topic. Now I feel that It should have been  just "Love" for Love is always true and if it is not then it was never Love....

Here I am republishing the same for many who has followed me recently and have missed my first Blog ....

http://kinsperumal.blogspot.com/2006/09/true-love.html

I was planning to do this after my 100th post but with the rate I am writing that might take 2 more years I suppose :)

Compromise.....

Life is full of compromises.

This is something I hear many saying when it comes to choosing a partner for them in life be it in an arranged or love marriage. But I was wondering If we start compromising only when it comes to choosing a partner!!! The truth is that compromise start in very early stages of our lives, in fact it starts right from the day we start to like something so badly, but then move on when we don't get it which is the case most of the times.....  :) 

I personally wanted to be a cricketer like any other Indian kid when I watched Sachin playing in Sharjah against Pakistan but then I had to put aside the plans for I had literally no encouragement or even support from my family for some reason and that was the first big compromise I had to make in my life. That continued for the rest of my childhood in which time I had to compromise a lot mostly for financial reasons which includes keyboard classes, hockey stick, jeans, and many more. There was one day I even had an argument about a bike which I wanted to have for travelling to school but my dad advised me in taking a cycle that we got when I was in 6th Std. Again I had to compromise this time but then I stuck to my decision of not taking the bi-cycle and I went to school walking all way for almost 2 kms daily. I was very angry with my dad for this the whole year.

One Year later.... 

We had to travel to Trichy for my engineering counseling just after 3 or 4 days after my dad had a surgery on his kidney to remove the stones in it. I had got 276.18 on 300 and was hoping to get a free seat in any of the private colleges in Chennai for obvious reasons. Never in my mind had I thought of picking up a seat in Anna University or any other Govt colleges. I know it is little weird but that’s the fact. But I was greeted with shock when I reached the place in the morning for we had very few seats in the private colleges, in fact the numbers of seats available were less than 10 and I was totally disappointed for my turn would come only in the evening at 5 to be exact. :(......

All through the day I was pushing my dad to get me a payment seat in ECE in Chennai which would cost five times more just for the fact that I wanted to enjoy a different lifestyle than what I had in my native place. Though he wanted me to take a seat in the Govt College, with a concerned face he just started turning the pages of a book provided with all the costs that would be involved and by the time we entered the all he had decided something in his mind. I could sense that he would get me the seat even if I didn't get a free seat in the college I wanted. As we entered the place I was surprised to find that the numbers had just dropped from less than 10 to less than 5. I had narrowed down to EEE seat in SRM after going behind ECE for almost all year for some reason without much knowledge about the college. Little did I know that It was the best place to study back then.... :)  

I had a little glow at this point for there was 3 seats available with 7 people to go before me only to find 4 among them were in the same quota. The entire glow vanished in seconds and all I asked my dad at that moment was a payment not thinking about his financial situation. He just nodded the head and I just kept my fingers crossed. After a commotion in the checking queue because of a mistake in my application form I was the first in selection queue when I entered the room with full of computers displaying the available options. We had the following notable options for us 

Free Seats: 

• ECE, EEE in Thiyagaraja College in Madurai.
• ECE in Govt College in Coimbatore.
• EEE, ECE seats in all the Govt colleges except REC, Anna University and PSG.
• Chemical in REC.
• Civil and lower branches in Anna University.
• ECE in St.Joseph
• ECE in MEPCO Sivakasi.
• EEE is SRM - 2 seats.
• Mechanical in PSG.

Of all the options in the screen I could see only SRM through my eyes. I knew that my dad wanted me to take the ECE seat which I had been talking about in Thiyagaraja college but when I chose the last but one EEE seat in SRM over that and he was taken aback by my decision but agreed to it without much resistance. Even now it remains a puzzle to him as to why I picked EEE over ECE which I wanted to pick. Now who picked the last is yet another interesting fact …… :) 

As we came out of the room we had to pay fifteen thousand rupees accepting the seat which would be just five thousand had it been Thiyagaraja College. As my dad was paying the fees, I noticed that he had carried enough cash for a payment seat along with him. Only then I realized what a huge compromise he had made at that moment just after his kidney surgery and with 2 more daughters to get married. It continued for another 4 years of his life where he spent around four lakhs for my college which could have been well below fifty thousand had I chose the Govt College in Madurai. Only then I realized all the compromises that I had done so far didn't not have any significance for the one he had done for me.

My dad might not have given me the best, but I am pretty much sure that he has always tried 200% to give me the best :)